Wow. Once more I’m speechless. Blown away by just how amazing all of you are. After clicking publish on that post I went to bed telling myself I’d easily be able to delete it again the next morning if without too many people having seen it. Now, though, I’m so glad I posted it. Not only do I feel better having opened up [not usually an easy task for me] but every single of your comments yesterday helped me in feeling more at ease with my current situation. While your kind and reassuring words might not have taken all worries away* they helped a lot already. Words can’t actually express my gratitude but still: Thank you so much!
* Because believe me: for a constant over-worrier like me it’d at least take Adam Levine asking me to marry him to forget all my worries [and likely pretty much everything else, too] in an instant ;). So nobody will ever be able to make me shake off all my anxiety. In case you knew Adam, however …
Okay, enough digressing [that’s what happens when you’re listening to Maroon Five while drafting your posts :D]. I guess you came for the food today, though, so I’ll keep any job search-related topics for another day – it’s What I ate Wednesday after all.
The one indisputable upside of currently not working is the extra time I have to prepare and eat food in the comfort of my home. As I hinted yesterday it’s not positive on all terms for me but – promise – I won’t get into it now. Let’s have a look at some of my recent creations and realisations instead. Don’t forget to raise your cup of coffee for a toast to our amazing host Jenn who’s still organizing WIAW even as a new mom – today hopefully with at least with some decaf java at hand, too.
Looking back at my old posts I can still tell my fear of working with certain ingredients. Not adding that extra bit of fat that might have heighthened the taste. Keeping the amount of grains involved ridiculously low [at breakfast or lunch at least] or not going for any at all. Can you talk about high-volume vegetable-filled dishes resulting in – at times – painfully bloated yet still not satisfied stomach? No fun. Nowadays I still need to push myself at times but I don’t stress about weighing every ingredient meticulously.
Cooking used to be a lot less fun and coming up with recipes myself hardly happened. The constant worry of the final dish not turning out and me wasting calories kept me from experimenting for the most part. And if I actually did the result was either disappointing in the way it looked already or – in those cases it met that criteria – was far from a taste experience. These days it can actually be the other way around: many of the best dishes I made lately looked far from appetizing but were so good. This savoury sauerkraut bread pudding was another one for that category … mmmh.
Just a year – or maybe only a few months? – ago I wouldn’t have tried a recipe like this. Using ingredients [other than vegetables] that didn’t come with a nutrition label – especially if they were high in carbs like the [delicious!] whole wheat roll in this dish – was out of question. I stuck to my rotation of a handful of ‘safe’ dishes that I knew would fill me up for hours on repeat. Always hoping I wouldn’t get a longing for a snack in between. Especially if I craved foods I hadn’t accounted for in my neatly scribbled down plan for the day. And now? It feels like I was step by step swapping fear with a curiosity of constantly trying new dishes.
While I’m still not at a point where I don’t care at all I’ve loosened up noticably. I’ll usually still start out with a basic recipe idea in head. But if I have the idea to add some extra ingredients while cooking – almond butter was the secret to making the casserole below even more delicious – it doesn’t stress me out as much anymore. I used to try and figure out the calories while cooking only to avoid any extra and rather go with a bland dish.
The “recipes” I created back then were far from worth sharing. All those in this post, however? Most definitely are. Now if only I was better at making decisions. Which one to share first?! Seems like I had really serious decisions to make, huh ;)? Hm, I might just have to throw the dice for that one – and maybe the decision on a roommate, too, because no, I haven’t picked one yet.
Ending this post on a sweet note again how about some more of my homemade chocolates?
Happiness inducing today: Yes, I’m a broken record but it truly bears repeating: your comments on my last post.
What was the last ‘looks like mush but tastes like heaven’ dish you had?
Has the way you cook changed in past years? If so: how?
And amit it: wouldn’t Adam Levine asking to marry you make all your worries futile, too ;)?