Originally, I had a different post planned for today. Yes, I’m in fact trying to work on a blog topic schedule. But life actually is the best blogging planner out there. It’ll give you a nudge – periods of writer’s block aside – and get you to spill your secrets and thoughts. And because we’re talking on a Thursday out loud it is. Thanks to Amanda for creating up a wide open space for whichever thoughts life happens to pour into our minds at any given day. Before I start letting my thoughts flow I already want to invite you to read and then share your thoughts, experiences or whatever else you want to say about the topic. Because I know my opinion but I want to know about yours!
Some of the big question(s) when it comes to blogging: who’s invited to read your blog? Whom do you share your URL with?
What exactly got me thinking: A simple question posed by a colleague at random. “So, tell me: where do I find the link to that English blog you’re writing?”*
Now you might wonder how she found out about the blog in anway. Because no, I in fact don’t run around wearing a bright pin that says “hi, I’m a blogger!”. Honestly, I wouldn’t have told everybody but as blogging is a major hobby of mine I’d mentioned it – among others – in the short portrait every new employee has to write about themselves basically the minute they walk in [talk about pressure]. And while most people didn’t comment on it any further both my boss and that colleague asked for the address on the same day. Weeks after I wrote that self-introduction. Given not even my family or friends know my blog’s URL I don’t feel like sharing it with my colleagues, either. Work is work. Private life is private life.
Also, I’d like to think that after nine hours at work I’ve fulfilled my duties of pretending to be normal and can dive straight into being me on the blog 😀 . As quirky, random, non-sensical, sappy, moody or however else I might be on any given day.
In hindsight I found myself regretting I mentioned it at all. Then again, blogging is a huge and important part of non-work life for me so why hide it? My ED past and remainders today are obviously key factors for my decision not to share, too. When I eat at work I don’t want anybody to judge me as ‘the girl with the eating disorder’. Like “Ah! Now I get why she brings her own food.” [No, actually, I just can’t find any options that would be a) vegan or b) reasonably priced] or – the opposite: “Wow, did she actually eat that??”
On a non-food-related level: I write professionally, too, and would not appreciate my colleagues picking apart my posts. They get a chance to do that at work – a newspaper office for any new readers – already so this is my place to do what I want and say what I want to say. Blogging as self-employed journalism? Hm … I like the sound of that .
In the end, I want to be able to individually decide whom to share my thoughts, experiences and struggles with. The thought of fully disclosing all I have shared on here yet and will share in future posts to a random person make me anxious. There might be people I’ve confided a lot of this to already but others who’d be surprised by several facets and I’d rather be in control of this.
If I wrote a recipe-only, fashion or similar blog I might be less cautious to share it with people I see on the regular in real life. But remembering [and at times admittedly not remembering every detail] the occasionally very personal posts I’ve shared so far I don’t feel comfortable with that thought.
My blog is still a playground and place to grow for me. Both in terms of figuring out where I want to go with it, with food and life in general. An unfinished piece of work, a painting in progress, if you will. And wouldn’t an artist rather invite others over to his first successful exhibition rather than the wild splashing of colours, tissues or … ? Though in the end I am already sharing this part of my life with friends: all of you out there. And that – for now – feels just right for me.
That was a whole lot about me so now tell me about you!
Happiness-inducing today: The excited and happy kindness of a stranger pointing out a running route to me on my first run in the new city.
Stay in touch!
No specific questions today but like I said: I’m super curious to hear how you decide whom to share your blog with. How you deal with colleagues or others possibly being surprised by the seemingly different person you are on the blog. …