Some weeks can only be summed up with ‘same old, same old’. Or as I would say about mine: Rinse. Repeat. Move on. In some cases like washing dishes the rinsing is in fact literal. Truth is that my days flew by mostly go go go and the weekend was over in the blink of an eye. It’s these weeks that make me feel unsatisfied and hard on myself. Did I really just let another week of life I was gifted pass by without major accomplishments? Gifted – I know some might find this a little ‘woo woo’ but the way I see things we never know how much more time on this planet we get. Work is definitely playing a role in my feelings towards the fleetingness [probably not a word] of life. Anyway, it was Meg herself, commenting on another comment in my previous Week in Review who reminded me/us that sometimes just working and keeping ourselves fed is accomplishment enough. I’m trying to convince myself it’s true.
Truth is – and it’s funny we all seem to feel the same here; even those people we would see as superwomen jugling way busier lives – we will probably always feel we’re falling short compared to others. Even if – that’s okay.* We’re all just doing our best in this game called life. Every day. Guilting ourselves over past shortcomings doesn’t help. Making changes in the future does.
Jumping into the past and in writing this post the future already: here’s to another Week in Review with Meg.
*yes, I’m totally giving myself a pep talk here, too. Spealing of which: Here’s more pep talk if you need some right now. We all do at times.
Worked five days. It was an unsatisfactory week in that I caught up with my to-dos early on, new tasks only coming in slowly for the first few days but on the upside I got to leave earlier on Monday and Tuesday. I’m aware it’s an odd thing to ‘complain’ about a lighter workload but I like being of help and don’t enjoy waiting around for tasks coming up. On the upside, I had a constructive conversation with my [female] boss that I’d worried about unnecessarily beforehand. It wasn’t a big deal but simply to clarify the right handling of some tasks I wasn’t entirely sure about.
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Spontaneously went on a long walk with my dad on Monday. Getting home early on this first beautifully sunny day in a while I wanted to get outside again soon and he happened to have similar plans, asking if I wanted to join him. Long time readers will know we have a difficult relationship so I agreed with slight unease. Yet in the end, it turned – one short blip aside – out to be an enlightening conversation, finding out more about my dad. It might sound odd but I think we’ll never stop learning or know all about even the people closest to us.
[Throwback picture because #bloggerfail of not taking pictures again.]
Went on multiple walks by myself – soaking up the sun while it was still here – and one with my sister, husband, P. and some of their friends.
Finally went and ordered new inlays for my shoes. An item that’s been on my to-do list for a very long time … Isn’t it funny how some of those tasks – unfortunately not all of them – we keep postponing end up way less uncomfortable or in this case time-intense than expected? Making that first step is the only barrier.
Spent time with my mum, P. and abovementioned friends’ five-year-old daughter which involved me reading her a book and randomly explaining gravity. It’s sweet to watch children play, explore and understand the world bit by bit. Marveling at what seems so trivial to us as adults. I miss this a little at times.
Hung out with my sister, her husband and P. on Sunday before dropping them off at the station. Their visit was short this time around so my happiness batteries could already take some recharging.
Ran errands for my parents a few times. This involved talking to the cheese guy again. Just to clarify this: No, I’m not into him but it’s nice noticing that uncomfortable feeling disappearing a bit.
Was in bed earlier than in many past months again. It’s not easy for night owl me but also not as much of a struggle as it used to be.
Worked out five days and – the actual accomplishment – spontaneously rested on Saturday. The reason was that I realized I wasn’t going about it for the right reason. Saturday night I found myself anxious about a few things, mostly because I hadn’t crossed off a satisfactory amount of tasks on my to-do list. Previously, I would have worked out, then made an effort at catching up on multiple tasks at once and delayed dinner until forever. Instead, I sat with the anxiety, made some tea, had dinner and finished my good good links. While my workouts [unfortunately; I miss those intense classes I used to visit while still living in another city] aren’t super intense or long I realized I was depending on them to stay calm and feel in control too much. So I took a cue from Cora and showed myself some compassion [or tried to because the guilt still lingered] rather than rely on exercise. It’s still a process of learning to rest and truly relax. How can something like this be so hard for some of us?
…and now it’s Monday again. The day dreaded by so many people yet I’m looking forward to it. Granted, I could do without the early mornings. On the upside are getting out and socialising again, particularly as I’ll be working at the front desk all week, subbing in for a colleague who’s on holiday. Things could definitely look worse for me. I hope you have something to look forward to on this first page of a new week, too – and even if it’s ‘just’ sunshine, catching up with colleagues or friends, …
Happiness-inducing today: Goofing around with P.