Stimulating those neurons

Is that title a bit weird? Maybe. Books I’m really enjoying influence me a lot [my family and friends would confirm this right away] and one of those I’m currently reading inspired this title. Because it’s been mentioned quite a lot already, you might know that loneliness is considered a major risk factor for developing dementia later in life. It’s not a fact anybody would be proud to reveal about themselves but yes, I’ve been spending a lot of time by myself in past years. In part this is natural for being an introvert but at the same time, even us introverts need other people in our lives to be truly happy. It’s not that I’m never around others but it’s not enough for my own needs. Which is a fact that an ED masks. It makes you feel like you preferred staying home and sticking with comfortable routines. Only this isn’t true but if you’re struggling/have struggled with an ED yourself, you’ll know it can be hard to differentiate your own voice from that of the ED. The one that’s telling you lies about who you are, what you like and at that heavily limiting you in following your dreams.
Long story short: This past week fell under the motto of stimulating those neurons [= preventing dementia] aka breaking routines, making good memories and trying new things. I will say it feels uncomfortable to write these confessions because I’m afraid of what kind of a person it makes me look like. Please note that these things don’t keep me from working or interacting with my colleagues; it’s outside of work that I struggle. Yes, I’m in my twenties and struggle with these things but mental illnesses know no age limits and while I wish I’d taken action a lot earlier, late is better than never.

On a blogging note, I’m sorry I’ve been MIA since the past Monday and neither commented on any of your posts nor published the good good links. Traveling for my aunt’s 50th birthday in Berlin [leaving Thursday night and getting back on Sunday] and feeling a little under the weather got in between me and blogging. I’ll definitely catch up on your posts this week and will also post the link lovin’ on Friday. Hope you understand.

Thanks to Meg for hosting our fun little Monday gathering!

Week in Review

In the past week, I …

Worked just a few days and was thankfully able to some off to allow for the trip to Berlin, leaving on Thursday afternoon.

Made an overdue appointment I’d been postponing forever.

Met a friend who was housesitting her parents’ place on Tuesday night and talked for hours. You know you’re with a truly amazing friend when you don’t even realize time passing by in the blink of an eye.

Spent Friday with abovementioned friend who spontaneously decided to meet me in Berlin again. It was one of the best days in a long time and I couldn’t be more grateful for this friend.

Berlin

Spontaneously bought another book while in Berlin. I don’t think I ever made a decision on a book that fast and spending on myself twice in this close succession? Definitely an accomplishment. Granted, having a friend around convincing me it was fine helped.

Went out to eat at a fully vegan Vietnamese restaurant, 1990 Vegan Living. Funnily enough, it wasn’t me but my very much non-vegan brother suggesting this. Their concept is best described as the Vietnamese version of tacos, as in: you order several small bowls, at best to be shared around the table. We admittedly didn’t do a lot of the latter because all of us were pretty hungry at that point but it was an amazing experience nonetheless. Unfortunately, my camera didn’t tag along for the journey and the pictures on my phone didn’t turn out due to the dim lighting situation in the restaurant. I did find a few pictures on Instagram, though. Too bad we didn’t have another opportunity to eat out because I really wanted to go back.

Ate intuitively during my whole stay in Berlin. This is something I find really hard at home but being in a completely different environment and around people who make me feel good, food was barely an issue most of the time. Note to self [that I already knew deep within]: travelling is a key to getting unstuck and closer to [food] freedom.
One more note on this that might be relieving for anybody struggling to eat intuitively is that listening to my hunger cues, I actually ate less than usual. Please note that this was neither my intention nor will I ever promote restricting your intake, much less sell intuitive eating as the “how to eat less” solution. I was careful in still eating enough to not loose weight but it was relieving to see that I can trust my hunger. Now to develop this trust and ability to listen to my intuition at home. Pictured below is merely a stand-in of a past Asian meal to make up for the lack of photos taken this past week.

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Did a historical  tour of Berlin. This was part of the program my aunt had organised for her birthday. Fun fact: history was one of my least favourite subjects in school but my aunt’s old friend does the best job of getting anybody interested in it. We had been on tours with him before and he’s amazing. The only unfortunate bit this time were the ungodly temperatures. My feet were frozen afterwards. Thank goodness for hotel bathrooms with floor heating …

Proved my anxious mind wrong by experiencing all of the above rather than the version of this trip my brain had pictured. The only unfortunate bit of the trip is that I’m now home with an icky cold. Lots of tea and sleep for me today.

Happy Monday!

 

Happiness-inducing today: My sister trying to cheer me up via WhatsApp because  being sick is so boring,

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Week in Review: Spontaneity, family time and books

Sometime this year, I will get back into an actual/reliable/better posting schedule, I promise you that. Though – in my defense – I had plans of posting in the past week. But now that the laptop issue is solved, my internet connection obviously decided it wasn’t having it [read: it was either slower than slow (and ours already is slow) or simply non-existent]. Did I mention technology is frustating me to no end?!

Okay, enough ranting about things I can’t change and onto the things I can’t change anymore, either, but also wouldn’t want to if I could. As in: a Week in Review of only the good parts of the previous seven days. Life still isn’t all sunshine and rainbows here and it will take time to get to that point  [or close because we know perfection doesn’t exist] yet I nonetheless had some really really marvellous moments lately. Thanks to Meg for deciding everybody should start the week focusing on the good instead of the bad things.

Week in Review

In the past week, I …

Spent time with my favourite little human. P. and my sister stayed at my parents’ house for a few days so she could study while the grandparents had an eye on P.. Time and time again, it’s amazing how much a toddler changes us, our priorities and just makes us feel happier. Whether it’s allowing you to see the joy in little everyday things you usually overlook or the – yes, often cited – way they approach food. And when they let you borrow their bobby car and you burst into the deepest laughter in a long time, you forget all about life’s heaviness for an instant.

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Did another pantry and all-around-apartment purge. This is a task by no means finished yet but starting to tackle it felt very freeing. It also made me ponder getting Marie Kondo’s book because I have a hard time getting rid of certain items. Have any of you read it? If so; How did it help you?

Spontaneously went to a concert. A few days before, a notification of said concert not too far from where I live popped up on my Facebook account as I liked the band’s page years ago but had almost forgotten about that. Spontaneity definitely isn’t one of my strengths and given going there meant forgoing an evening with P. and my sister, I almost put it off again. A friend deciding to tag along was the ‘accountability’ I needed and I’m so glad I went. The concert was plain amazing. If you like a capella music – or even if you don’t  [yet] -, listen to their version of Get lucky. It’s brilliant.

Got back into food blogging a little. Read: Created a new recipe for a vegan mint chocolate tarte. I don’t even remember when I last shared a recipe on here. It felt good to be back in the kitchen [outside of daily food preparation, obviously] but the photography part reminded me why I won’t go into full-on food blogging anytime soon. It’s the most frustrating part for me. Juli and I should really think about cooperating here because I really enjoy writing the posts while she’s a natural with the camera.

Mint Chocolate Tarte_1

While we’re on the food topic already: Prepared and shared a meal with my family. Our schedules don’t always work out but with my sister around, I really wanted to make this happen. Unfortunately, these dinners always escape the camera but I will have to put my own spin on the recipe I used because it’s one of my absolute favourites ever.

Ordered and immediately started two new books [“The Brain – The story of you” by David Eagleman and “Switch” by Chip and Dan Heath] . Voicing my frustration with not having any good reads on hand in my previous post was the final nudge I needed to place an order. When they arrived, I couldn’t hold myself back from starting both already. If you’re always looking for book recommendations, too, I can talk a little more about them once I finish these. So far, both are amazing and just what I wanted.

And with that, I’m finishing this post and wishing you a happy Monday!

Happiness-inducing today:  You guessed it already: Getting to spend a final few hours with P. before my sister left again.

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Thoughts on nourishment and finding silver linings

Hi there and yes, I’m still alive.

Leaving the blog world for a whole week after the previous post was not my intention . What happened was that WordPress ever so kindly kept me from logging into my account on several days. This has happened before and I’m still no wiser about the reasons so if any of you are, please let me know. It simultaneously happened with my Gmail account which was extra annoying. Though while not fun, it obviously is a first world problem and didn’t keep me from living my life.

Okay, onto some of the happenings from and a few thoughts on the past week. Thanks to Meg for hosting this fun little party to start the week on a good note.

Week in review

During the past week I …

Worked. Same old, same old. It was a somewhat busy week which is a positive in my book. There’s nothing worse – again: first world problem – than waiting for time to pass until you can leave during the less busy weeks.

Mailed a little birthday package to a very good friend living way too far away. As much as I like surprising others, I have a hard time finding a gift that feels just right. Useful but surprising. My sister – not completely without ulterior motives 😉 – suggested one of her undies so that’s what I got. The birthday girl was really happy with her new donut undies. FYI: This post is not sponsored by my sister  – I bought  the undies from my own money ;).

Spent time with the cutest little fellow in my world [aka: my nephew], my sister and my parents. I’ve seen them – my sister and P. – less often and miss having them around. It’s fascinating how fast P. is developing now – not just in terms of growth or vocabulary but in character. Being honest here, he’s sweet but definitely a little wild thing and hyperactive at times. Still cute. Plus, he’s calling me by my “pet name” now and has those adorable snuggly moments so it all balances out. Can’t he stay little forever, please?!

Met up with the aforementioned friend for another cooking date. It might unfortunately be our final one for this year with the holidays and lots of invitations coming up. Sad because the afternoons at her house are the epitome of nourishing for me. Cora wrote a post about this that really resonated with me. What makes a meal or a moment in life nourishing isn’t necessarily or at least not solely about the food. Yes, some foods do feel more nourishing than others. But how far does that go if we’re not feeling nourished wholly? The meal with my friend was just that through the setting – I really like her kitchen: lots of light, a few decorations and an overall cozy feeling -, the company and, yes, also the food. Feeling full but not uncomfortably, taking time to eat and having a deep conversation. Oh and since I figure you might wonder: we tried Dana’s Lentil Eggplant Lasagna. Repeat offender …What can I say? There are a million blogs but I simply trust her recipes and have so many I want to try. It’s actually funny I chose the lasagna because I neither like eggplants nor tofu much but the reviews were incredibly positive and it fit my criteria of offering enough tasks for two people. The verdict? So good! The sauce is super simple but flavourful [I didn’t use store bought marinara but a bottle of unseasoned tomato sauce, adding talian herb seasoning], the tofu ricotta actually delicious on its own already and the eggplant? Oh well. I thought it was cut into too thick slices as per the recipe. My friend would have liked more of a spicy kick – as did my mum and sister who got to try some leftovers – but enjoyed it. Her husband missed the meat [and I didn’t expect anything else to be honest]. You can’t please everyone even with dishes that got rave reviews on the blog. I actually took a few pictures this time but they didn’t turn out so I’ll use one of Dana’s here. I highly recommend you give it a try.

Had dinner with my parents, sister and P on Saturday night. Since I liked the lasagna so much, I made it again and can now say it’s definitely way faster to assemble the second time around. Slicing the eggplant into thinner rounds this time really made me enjoy it even more. It was only me eating this – the remainder of the family had Serviettenknödel [containing eggs so not for me] with mushroom cream sauce – but it was sharing a meal and time spent together that mattered. Yet another nourishing moment in my week.

Went on a walk with my mum on Sunday afternoon. She suggested it after we’d waved goodbye to my sister and P. I’m glad we did despite the frigid temperatures because our conversation and getting a good dose of fresh air was just what I needed as a finishing touch to the week. It wasn’t the happiest week for me but I’m always trying to shift my focus on the silver linings and try to be forgiving [of myself and others].

Despte what it might look like from the things listed above, the past week was rough. Tears, a hard time sleeping most nights because my brain wouldn’t calm down,  an uncomfortable appointment and body image struggles – all of these were part of it, too. And just so it doesn’t seem like it: I’m not saying any of these asking for sympathies but because I want to be honest. A lot of bloggers [choose to] portray only the good moments of life and if that’s what feels right for them that’s totally fine.  It’s just not for me [I also can’t lie when people in real life ask how I am and I definitely wish I could at times].  But I’m obviously also a big believer in seeing the silver linings in even the ickiest of weeks. And with all of that, I wish you a …

Happy Monday!

Happiness-inducing today: Family time. That’s not to say we were always getting along but it’s the overall happiness that’s on my mind still right now.

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Week in Review: Quality over quantity

… and here we are on Monday again.

When something’s fun, do it again. Or: never change a running system. Or: everybody likes positivity. That’s the somewhat long-winded way my brain chose to say one thing: I’m jumping aboard the Week in Review train again, once more talking [for the most part at least] about the good happenings only.

Thanks to Meg for inventing and hosting this fun little party to start our Mondays on a happy note.

Week in review

During the past week I …

Published a post I’d been meaning to write or a long time. If you didn’t get a chance to read it yet, I’d really be interestedd to hear your thoughts on the topic, whatever they might be.

Baked more Christmas cookies. Actually even the same recipe again and – bad blogger that I am – forgot to take pictures. I’ll make an effort to keep some aside the next time and snap a picture then. For now, I’ll borrow the original recipe creator’s.

Met up with the friend I mentioned the other week for another cooking date. We chose this recipe by Minimalist Baker [yes, also again; I simply trust in their recipes being winners]. No picture because we ate with her husband again and I didn’t feel comfortable enough to whip out my phone around him. Modifications we made were: using frozen pre-chopped kale that we cooked with pepper and vegetable broth so it ended up resembling German-style kale rather than the way Dana suggested. And: using locally grown Japanese sweet potatoes. Now if you’ve been around for a while you might remember me expressing my dislike of this vegetables before. Still true for the orange ones. But Japanese? Wow! Sign me up! Unfortunately, my friend bought them on a recent trip and I won’t be able to buy them around here. If you haven’t tried them yet but can buy them were you are: do it! Coming from a former sweet ‘tater hater here, that’s saying a lot ;).

More than the food, though, I enjoyed spending the afternoon talking and just being around a friend, getting a change of scenery. We already loosely set a new cooking date which I’m already looking forward to.

Had a full-on examination of my health [as in: blood test, cardiogram and, ahem, handing in an urine sample] at my new GP’s office. Oh do I not like having my blood drawn. Sleeping the night leading up to this? I wish! But it was worth it because the results were good, iron and vitamin B12 levels fine, too [these weren’t in the past]. However, my vitamin D levels are not where they should be. Hence getting a prescription.  And as such …

Started taking a vitamin D supplement. As somebody who tries to avoid taking medication whenever possible, this alone didn’t suit me. When I pocked up the prescription drug, however, I noticed it containing gelatin. Not cool. Hence why I put off taking it for a little bit but then finally reminded myself of this: yes, it sucks. But is me being 100 % vegetarian/mostly vegan worth risking my health? I know this is a struggle others might face, too, and think that health always needs to come first. As hard as it is to wrap my head around this: no animal is saved by me not taking these pills and staying in a nutrient deficit.

Spent some time with P.. My sister, her husband and the little one were in town for less than 24 hours so it wasn’t a long visit but seeing my favourite little boy was wonderful still. Even if just for the excitement of finding he can now pronounce my name [it’s a somewhat difficult one even for some adults].

Met another friend at her parents’ house on Saturday night. We went to school together and she’s now living quite a bit further away so we don’t get to see each other often enough. Following a long phone conversation earlier this week already, we still talked for hours while snuggling with her cat, Oskar. Having these friends that – no matter how much time has passed since the previous meet-up and how far they live away – always get you and that you can lead the deepest conversations with is one of the biggest gifts I can imagine having. Long-winded sentence but I think you get what I mean?

While certain things didn’t happen as planned, work wasn’t the most amazing and self-criticism was high again this week, the overall memory is a good one. Especially writing down just the positives, I’m reminded of all the good in life and the warm feeling of happiness I soaked up while once more breaking out of routines I’ve gotten too used to. And as the title suggests, this week was another reminder that quality matters more than quantity: While both the get-togethers with my friends as well as my sister’s stay were way too short, the brightness they brought into my days made them seem like so much more.

Now it’s getting late [Sunday night] so all that’s left to say for me is:

Happy Monday!

Happiness-inducing today: P. being ridiculously cute. Yes, annoying aunt moment again.

 

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Week in Review: The spontaneous and happy one.

Let’s do this Monday posting thing again. This week, I’m going the route of sharing only the little things that brightened my days rather than including the mundane or not so amazing ish. Because while yes, that definitely happened, too. But I’d rather not let it take over my mind right now  [which I’m sure you’ll know things do when you write them down]. Given my spontaneity in writing this post, it’ll be on the shorter side. Short and sweet. [edited: I didn’t delete this sentence because we can all laugh at my self-assessment].

So here’s my by no means complete list of recent going-ons, joining Meg’s motivational Monday party.

Week in review

Worked at the front desk several times. You might remember me talking about subbing in for my colleague usually working in this position before. And enjoying it a lot. Which honestly isn’t what anybody knowing me in real life would ever guess. Because I’m not exactly the most extroverted of characters and multitasking probably isn’t my hugest strength, either. Or maybe that’s just a side of me that needs strengthening? I unfortunately won’t be able to test this hypothesis as my colleague will be back from her vacation again today.

Semi-spontaneously met up with a friend to – finally – watch a movie we’d meant to forever. This really made my Friday. Talking to a friend, just chatting about anything and everything is what I absolutely needed. Always need, really. Which lead to neither of us really paying much attention to the movie – priorities. Worth the longer drive through the misty dark [scaredy cat here].

Rolled a lot of balls. TWSS. Okay, truth be told: this doesn’t even sound dirty to me because I’m German and a ball is just a … ball?! The kind children or soccer players kick around. You’re the ones with the dirty minds ;). Anyway: I made a double batch of my healthy Snickers truffles for my colleague’s wedding. I’d forgotten how much fun making them is. Granted, what helped was maybe that I did it while I …

Snickers truffles - healthy and vegan

Listened to several really good podcasts. I don’t know about you but I like when people not only recommend a podcast but point out specific episodes they liked [because at least I don’t find every episode of every podcast I like relatable or interesting]. So that’s what I’ll do on the blog from now on. One I found really interesting was episode 126 of the Food Psych podcast in which Kaila Prins [author of the blog Performing Woman, formerly In My Skinny Genes]. Especially interesting: Min. 36:20 – what she says about marketing? Ick. Marketers’ techniques suck.  Earlier on, Kaila also talks about a blogger she once tried to help in her recovery but failed and who’s negatively influencing her audience which is something I’ve noticed in the blogosphere before, too. Post on that topic coming soon.

Baked an apple cake for my sister. She just started the studies for her master and along with taking care of P. every day, doesn’t get have a lot of freetime on her hands anymore. Meaning less time for baking, too, so when I found out my mum was driving over to babysit Saturday night, I spontaneously baked the cake to send along. Much like the truffle rolling, this was some serious kitchen therapy. The recipe I used unfortunately is in German though I still highly recommend it. It’d be worth translating because it’s made from very simple nutritious ingredients, sweetened by a mere two tablespoons of maple syrup and filled with a LOT of apple goodness as well as – and that really is the most important part delicious. Another note just to clarify: I absolutely don’t think there’s anything wrong with desserts made with refined sugar and flour. At. All. My whole family eats those, too. I just like to sneak some more nutritious treats in there every now and then. This cake was even picky eater approved and we’re not talking about P. enjoying a slice – my mum ate it ;).

Speaking of not shunning sugar, I. ..
Ate a lot of chocolate*. This was … interesting. You might not remember me mentioning a lessened interest in it a few months ago. This is actually still true for the most part. While I do eat it every day and certainly more than just one piece, it’s definitely less than a year ago and not intentionally. I won’t lie in saying that the amount I ate on the weekend made me feel uneasy at first. But then I reminded myself of what I’d call a little intuitive eating lesson. Most of us recovering/having a strained relationship with food might fear overeating/figuring out their right level of fullness. Here’s what helps me: Pausing to notice if I can still taste the food I’m eating. Sounds obvious? What I mean is that when I eat for reasons other than cravings or hunger  [i.e. boredom, stress etc.], I don’t actually notice the individual food’s taste. It’ll taste merely sweet/salty/sour/whatever. If it’s that, I will then put the food aside and ideally brush my teeth. In yesterday afternoon’s case, I was definitely longing for more chocolate and since my intuition knows best, happily followed suit.

Maybe this was super obvious to you but I find it helpful in discerning true hunger and different motives for eating. That said, I’m not perfect and still eat emotionally at times. Practice makes perfect.

*when I say ‘a lot’ this isn’t to say any amount of a certain food was too much but merely that I occasionally ate more than was [physically] comfortable for myself

Listened to this song

… many times. Don’t judge me because while you might be so over it already, it’s only been on the radio for a short time over here. Plus,I don’t have a radio at home so only ever use one while driving [not often].

Looking back, there were quite a few acts of spontaneity in the mix. Unusual for a planner like me but even though some of them threw me off my routine for the day, they all ended up being worth it. In fact, the past week overall – excluding the uncomfortable parts – was a truly good one. Now to figure out ways/opportunities for more pleasureable spontaneity in weeks to come …

Full disclosure again: No, this week wasn’t all happy happy,  joy joy. I’m just choosing to focus on the good parts only today. If you had your rough moments in the past seven days: I can relate. That being said:

Happy Monday!

How spontaneous are you?

What was the last thing you baked? Any Christmas cookies yet [no shame here]?

Happiness-inducing today: Not feeling the usual Sunday sadness  too heavily.

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Returning to sunshine and trust in intuition

Posting on consecutive days? That’s become rare on this blog by now. It’s been a while but I spontaneously decided to join Meg’s marvelous Monday parade again. Because while things overall are still not all sunshine and rainbows, there were many good ones in between. This is a very spontaneous post [meaning: hopeully not too many typos], written late at night after our guests had left. Trying to keep those memories afresh rather than letting the Sunday sadness – can any of you relate or is it just me? – sink in. Let’s get listing as our host herself would say. Here’s some of what I did/what happened in my life recently.our host

Week in review

Voted. Twice in five weeks because we’re fancy like that. Once – as mentioned here – for the Bundestag and yesterday, my county held elections for the so-called Landtag.
Baked the first batch of Christmas cookies of the season. Or, if you’re judging me for starting this early, autumn cookies. Because when is ever not a time for cookies?? I was even daring enough to try a new recipe and it got rave reviews by the family. And yes, I took pictures but knowing my laptop’s non-speed have yet to upload so will be sharing them soon. For now, a  lttle throwback to my Zimtsterne from the past year. Definitely on the baking list again.

vegane Zimtsterne - flourless vegan Christmas cookies

My favourite little munchkin [for those of you new here: my nephew P.], my sister and brother visited us for the weekend and we had a truly amazing time wth the golden October sun paid us a much welcome visit. Living further away, my brother doesn’t get to stay around frequently and seeing my sister and P. obviously is wonderful time and time again, too.

As I’ve mentioned, I haven’t been feeling too cheerful lately and seeing them warmed my heart, really filling those happiness batteries. Remember the surplus of happiness-inducing moments in yesterday’s post?  The whole weekend – minus a few blurbs – was just that.

Made an effort to eat intuitively this weekend. Now some of you might be surprised, wondering if I wasn’t already doing that all the time. The sad answer is: no and I had  yet to truly get back to it even before this. With the decrease in self-confidence mentioned recently, I fell back into old unhealthy eating patterns. If you have or are struggling with an ED, you’ll know how hard they are to escape from. How easily they can lure you back in when life gets unstable and scary. I’m not proud to write this but have started taking steps to get better. Trusting my intuition was uncomfortable but worth it for more enjoyable meal and family times. Saturday was easier than Sunday when – clearly showing me its appreciation for tuning into my intuition [as if] – my stomach had me wake up insanely ravenous. Feeding that metabolism, feeding it. I’m somebody who likes plans and having things under control but that’s no way to eat live.

It’s an example used time and time again but true: P. modeled intuitive eating to a T again this weekend. In between cake after breakfast, cookies, cheese, buttered bread and a surprisingly huge amount of gnocchi at dinner, it was amazing to see him eat. Yet while us adults were surprised by how much he packed away, we also didn’t question any of his choices [why would we?]. It was obvious he knew what he needed. No outside reassurance needed, no comparison, no questions asked. Toddlers truly have a beautiful confidence of their intuition that many of us have sadly lost.

Treated myself to some Crazy Rumors lip balms, the Parlor Collection if you were curious. These had been on my radar for years upon years but I’d never been able to convince myself to make that purchase. The old saying should really be ‘lip balms are a girl’s best friend’ because I’d rather take those – and have a decent collection – than sparkly nothingness.

Rushing to finish this post because, oh hey, Monday and as such work is coming closer. The above is by no means a full recap of the past week, much less life lately in its whole but it’s a little glimpse into the important or happier parts. Because those are what we should focus on when the going gets tough.

Happy Monday!

Happiness-inducing today: Family time. A lame one, I know, but simply the truth.

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